24. Deepak is worried after marriage

CHAPTER 24

Deepak is worried after marriage

Deepak was sitting with his sister and brother-in-law. “Sister, even the marriage was over. I am getting very scared about the first night.”

Pratibha said, “Why are you getting scared? I got you married according to the doctor’s advice. I think you still have a psychological problem. You have to come out of it.”

“But doctor has given me 2 years time. I will be perfect only after the operation. I can’t understand how to tell her about it.”

“See, that girl is from a very good family. If you tell her slowly, she will understand and cooperate. She will not tell anyone about it. You know, I have helped Jaidev with lakhs of rupees. That also counts. Nothing will happen. They will have to adjust.”

“But I can’t tell her any lies or cheat her in any way.”

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The bedroom was fully decorated with flowers and fancy papers. Deepak was waiting for Shermi. He was full of fear. Shermi came in with a glass of milk in her hand. She was so beautiful, that Deepak forgot his problem. He took the glass and kept it on the table. He took her in his arms. Then he took her face in his palms. “You are like moonlight.”

Shermi was silent.

“I am lucky to get a person like you. Do you really like me?”

Shermi nodded silently.

“Please tell me your thoughts. Do you really like me?” asked Deepak.

Shermi was not daring enough to look at his face. Tears appeared in her eyes. She wiped them. Deepak was shocked. He lifted her chin with his fingers. “Today is our first night. It comes only once in life time. We should be happy today and experience every moment. But you have tears in your eyes.”

Shermi wiped her tears and said, “Nothing like that.”

Deepak brought her face near his with his palms. “Shermi, open out your burdens. Cry. It will make you feel light.”

Shermi said, “Please forgive me. I think I have cheated you.”

Deepak was surprised. “Shermi, don’t think like that. Many things happen in life without our knowledge. But we should not let things disturb us.”

Deepak pulled her towards him. “From today, we are husband and wife. We have to share the ups and downs in life and live together. I will cure your wounds. Forget the past and let us start a new life.”

He hugged her. “I have to tell you some truths of my life. I think I have cheated you.”

Shermi looked at him in surprised. “Has someone deceived you in love?”

Deepak shook his head. “I have to tell you some truths of my life. I think I have cheated you.”

Shermi was shocked. “What do you mean?”

“To tell you the truth, I am impotent.”

Shermi said, “Deepak, I can’t understand what you are trying to tell me.”

Deepak went a bit away and walked to and fro. Then he again came near her.

“If you want me to tell you the details, I have all the organs of a man, but the masculinity is very low.”

He got up and went to the cupboard. He took out a file. “I did not want to get married, but my sister did not allow. She took me to America for treatment. I think I must be 20% cured now. I have to take medicines for 2 years and then go for an operation to America. After that, I will be completely cured.”

Shermi listened to him in surprise.

Deepak said, “I am telling you the truth. I wanted to go for marriage only after the operation. But my sister insisted. Also, when I saw your photo, I was attracted to you. I did not want to lose you. I think I fell in love with you and put you in my heart.”

Shermi caught hold of his hand and pulled him near her and made him sat beside her.

Deepak said, “Shermi, please forgive me. I love you very much.  I will give you anything you want. But I request you to please wait for 2 years.”

Tears appeared in her eyes. She hugged him tightly. “I too love you Deepak. I love you a lot. I will wait not for 2 years, but for 20 year if you want. Now, I understand the real meaning of love. I love you Deepak.”

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In the days that went by, Deepak did all he could to please Shermi and keep her happy. He brought sweets and dresses for her. He took her to parks and hotels. But at night, he held her tightly. He kissed her. She went to high level. But he could do anything after that. He fell down on the bed besides her. She was full of sensation. Helplessly, she went and took bath. Then came back and lay down besides him.